Speech...

I am giving my speech today and I am really nervous. Even though I am in speech class I still get nervous for every speech I give. I know I will do fine because this is a topic that I feel strongly about. I am just worried that I will go over my time limit because there is so much that I would like to cover about my topic. Just deep cleansing breaths and I think I will do fine. Wish me luck.

School....

I am so ready for school to be over. it is getting down to the end of the semester and some of my teachers think that they are the only teacher that i have, so they can cram everything they have left into three weeks. i have so much homework now it is not even funny. i am trying to get everything but it is so hard and i want badly to keep my gpa up. i am just totally ready to have my degree done and out of the way. It is so stressful trying to work and go to school. it makes me so angry when all of these high schoolers are like well i will just work and go to school at the same time, it will be so easy. well guess what it is not! i am completely stressed and this was just my rant for the day.

Tori James....

God just received a wonderful angel 3-14-2012. Tori James was one of my coworkers and a great friend. To people who did not know her she seemed like the quiet girl with a great sense of fashion. She was a sweet and amazing girl. All of my thoughts and prayers go out to her family. No one ever expected this to happen. Who would have thought that an 18 would have a failed liver and kidneys and have her lungs callapse in a matter of three days. The only person who knew was God. And he ALWAYS has a purpose. My heart goes out to Johnathan, her boyfriend. I know that yall loved each other very much. I can never could imagine losing the person that i love.

My Daisy.....

Well i finally got my jeep up and running. It is a burgandy jeep grand cherokee lorado 2000. I love this thing to death. I named her Daisy because she reminded me of a flower. Well she started cutting off on me and skippin and it cost me $300 to get her fixed. Hopefully that is all that will need repaired for a while. She is driving smoothly now and i thank God for that. I was really scared to drive her at first because i did not know when she was going to cut off on me. Sometimes when she would cut off it would take forever for her to crank back up again.

Grandparents....

Sometimes i sit and think about how lucky i am that i was able to have all my grandparents except one and i got to have two of my great grandparents as well. I wish that my children would be able to experience this too. Sadly my parents had me at a late age that my dad will be way in his 80s when my kids become teenagers. I have so many fond memories of hanging out at my grandparents houses and my dads father actually lives with me and my mom and dad. I know that having this experience has shaped me into the person i am today, i just wish that my children can have that too. I don't want them to have to come home and ask me why they don't get to experience grandparents like their friends. Well i don't have any kids now and i don't plan on having kids for a while anyway. I am also marrying a man in the Air Force so we will be on the move a lot too. I have to face the fact that my kids will not have the carefree life that i was able to experience.

ugggghhh

I can't even begin to describe how much i hate blackboard. I have been locked out for almost two weeks and no one knows what is going on. Now i have three speech quizes that i have to make up. I am just so not a happy camper right now. I wish they would just figure eveything out.          On a happy note i was able to get my jeep fixed and i just got it back. It is driving so lovely:) which makes me extremely excited.

Crazy Life....

oh life. it is such a crazy thing. i am spending time with one of my old friends today. i am some what excited to hang out with her and yet nervous at the same time. we grew apart because she started to go down a road that i did not ever want to go down. it sucks to have to tell your best friend that if she continues to go down this path that she is on that yall are not going to be able to be friends. it sucks so bad and we have been distant for a year and a half now. i just could not put myself down that road with her. i told her that i would be there for her when she needs me. she txt me out of the blue and said i need to talk to you. that she needed to talk to someone she could trust and she said she was sorry for not understanding my situation. so i am going out to eat with her tonight and we are going to talk. so lets hope everything works out:)